"Havoc" and "Self-Love" from the personal collection Badges of a Modern Girl
Havoc
I walked out because she couldn’t handle
the tragic words spilling out of my mouth.
I didn’t realize the magic to release my
minds havoc.
Without a doubt,
I knew I said too much, my brain was telling me
to stop but my heart was telling me what’s the
rush.
I pause.
I have to realize not all are like me and can tell a story
so tragically, yet gracefully.
See,
We will never grow as humans if we continue to come
to conclusions and have small minds.
Let’s come up with
solutions and have life transfusions.
We cant fix mental well-being if we can’t even handing the
meaning.
Life isn’t always rainbows and halos;
It can be void of tomorrows, gloomy tempos, fallen dominos
and leave a fucked-up afterglow.
But;
Isn’t that how they make superhero’s?
Self-Love
It’s a powerful feeling and indeed freeing reaching
deep inside your soul to find self-love.
You will leave many behind, you will start to decline sharing
your space with people who don’t share the same state
of mind.
Reaching for a higher love is never worthless, in fact; it
should be your purpose.
Even if you’re the only one that takes notice.
The moment you realize you’re enough nothing else’s matters,
you will be ready for new chapters and even new disasters.
Carey is an African American Personal Chef and a long-time writer and love of poetry. She writes from personal knowledge of trauma, grief, mental health, and healing. She is hoping to inspire and create a unified experience of hope and understanding through her work.